I reached my first goal!

I am sure Ben told you all about my numbers, decreased fluids from my lung sac, and lymph-nodes. No luck with my liver yet, but we are glad the tumors are not growing. There are some problems perhaps with my spleen and kidneys that has to do with the weird clotting in my body. Dr. Otero didn't seem too concerned. I had an echocardiogram. It's a heart test to see if I had a hole. I guess Regie had a laugh in there. SUUURRREE, make cancer funny. Well needless to say, my ticker is just fine. The said it looked beautiful. You know that is the second time I have heard this. I think I should start a modeling career, just think, it could help pay for medical bills.

I wanted to make sure that I posted my first goal. I went to Gilda's club and did YOGA!!! Oxygen tank and all. I got on the floor and did it. Wow, how my skills have changed, but I did it! It was the first thing I wanted to accomplish. Ben came in at the end of class and I even heard him Chant (he he).

Afterwards we went for tempura rolls. I crave these unbelievably. Ben will go to any length to get these for me. I have no idea why they are so delicious. I guess they say taste buds change.

Ben has a great suggestion to take further advantage of Gildas. I told the leader that I was looking for some company too and she said they go out of coffee a lot, so I cant wait to start meeting some people who are going through the same as I am. Because I have said that all the support in the world doesn't make others understand, and that's okay, I can't understand the other side either.

Then we went to my school and saw a bunch of my professors, it was really fun. My social anxiety seems to be getting better. I figure what the hell, what's the worst that anyone is going to say.

I have a really difficulty time typing. For some reason my brain is like mush, my friend calls it chemo brain, so before this takes two more days i wanted to thank all that came out to Luigis or contributed. The outpouring of love and support was unbelievable. I wish I would've had the energy to be there. Again I am shocked at how generous people are. I truly think there are much more caring and thoughtful people in the world, than there are the nasty ones.

I also have to thank Sarah for the Crazy Sexy Cancer DVD. I ripped it open and watched it right away. Thank you so much. And Aunt Amy, I finally got the meditation CD into my iPod, it is fantastic, I know you are taking classes, I'd love to study with you.

okay, now I must go back and clean this mess up. WE'RE BEATING IT!!!!!!!!!